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birdyspeaks5

birdyspeaks5 has written 72 posts for leariatrusays

Saying so long good friend

My daughter’s dog is dying. She is mostly gray-not jet any longer like she use to be. She falls up the stairs and down now. She sleeps most of the time. I pick her up. I can’t feel her weight any longer. Her eyes are almost gray with cataracts.  She thinks before she does anything … Continue reading

Been Meaning Too…

I have been meaning to do so much in my life, but never get around to it.  Now life has caught up to me.  I am in my sixth decade now.  I have three grown children and two small grandchildren.  I have not adjusted to being almost old yet. The biggest disappointment in my life … Continue reading

Humm!

Think I have lost my sense of humor. ☹️

$8.75 per hour

In my next existence, I want to appreciated. Perhaps I am that now, but I do not recognise the existence of that appreciation. I work practically everyday in someone’s classroom for peanuts. I make $8.75 an hour babysitting students. That is about $75.00 a day.   I am called a substitute teacher.  I have a … Continue reading

Would I be different

Would I be different if I had a full-time job? I could buy whatever I desired. Pay any bill. Have a car that I knew would start every time I got in it. I can help my children with tuition. I could help them with things they needed and some of what was wanted.  I … Continue reading

Go Figure!

My husband, my daughter and I were watching the super bowl game this evening with iOS from the iPad on a huge screen. The screen went out somewhere in the third quarter. I mean blank screen! Nothing- no sound. No picture! We sat there thinking. With our luck, this would be the greatest game in … Continue reading

Reflections of life later

I thought I was something. I thought I was suppose to be someone. I thought life was going to be anything but this.  What my daughter did to me opened up my world to what reality is. I was better off just ignoring it I thought. Can’t do that any longer.  My aim  is to … Continue reading

Something is wrong

Something is wrong with my life. I thought that by time I got to be in the decade that I’m in, life would be better than it is. I am tired of watching other people live their lives and I’m in the stands of my life watching then live. I’ve had a career.  I am married … Continue reading

Where to from here?

If you read my last blog “But of Course”, then you’ll understand how absolutely devastated I was by what my daughter did to me: How do I get up again after being so distraught? I’m overwhelmed! I have no idea how to heal from the brokenheartedness I feel bursting from my heart.   I have … Continue reading

But of course…

I have to write something this eve!  The last eve and day of 2016.  I am afraid to say that I am glad this year will soon be over. I never want to wish time to move faster.  Who knows what trials next year will hold.  This year has been exasperating.  Still, no real job … Continue reading